I used to make a lot of electronic music when I was younger (under a different screen name), and I'd love to get back into it. In the meantime, I'm moving to host my full catalog here, and I'll probably republish an album every Monday.

Daybreak (2008)

The first album I made, purely with MIDI. It's unclear whether I started with a text-to-MIDI PHP site and graduated to Music MasterWorks (how I remember it), or whether I lost the MMW license after a hard drive wipe and had to switch to the PHP site (how I apparently wrote it down in high school). While I'm glad I eventually gained access to samples and effects, there's something to be said for pure MIDI as a study exercise for learning how to make good music with minimal tools. This is more of a historical artifact than a "must-listen", but if you have a little nostalgia for playing `onestop.mid` on Windows XP, you might enjoy this one.
01 - Tower
02 - Sonata 2
03 - Sitcom Family
04 - Alien Dissection
05 - Standin' Out

Life is Like a Neutered Monkey (2009)

It feels weird to say this, but I made this album in high school, and the album title was a running gag with my friends about the non-anatomically correct monkey toy in the album cover. In fact, that paneled wall was the outside of one of the school buildings. A lot of this music is mixed poorly, because I was still pretty early in making music - I had a good instinct or two, but no good training.
01 - Summer Dream
02 - Another Day
03 - Chemical Tension
04 - Downright Chipper
05 - Ambulant
06 - Test Flight
07 - Phoenix
08 - Sand
09 - Burn with Me
10 - Nuclear Winter
11 - Iceberg in the Sky
12 - Solitude
13 - The Beat of the Moon
14 - Platform Descending
15 - Red Spot
16 - Steam Machine
17 - Floppy Jalopy
18 - Solipsis

Forward is the Great Password (2010)

This is where I started to really get into my groove. The album is named after a track that I was really proud of, but it was on a sensitive topic (it samples the movie [_Judgment at Nuremberg (1961)_](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Judgment_at_Nuremberg), it examines the costs of fascism, and it blows out of the gate with "Can you understand what Hitler meant to us?"), so I never properly published Midnight Express. And I always regretted that, I always felt "I should publish that song, that was so important I named the whole album after it." So now I am, even though the only copy I have has some glitches from maxing out my CPU while recording. I was such a maximalist back then, or at least, I got carried away easily. That's definitely not the only thing on this album I'm proud of. _What if We had it Backwards_ is a musical palindrome, including reversed reverb. _Template_ marked a milestone in my wacky sample percussion skills and my comfort with cranking up the resonance on my filters, which would later pay off in the moody atmospheric breakbeats of _Catnip Aloe_. It's probably one of the albums where I least masked the depression I was going through at the time, even down to some track names. Things got better. I didn't believe they would, but they did.
01 - Vacuum
02 - Snow at the Lodge
03 - What if We had it Backwards
04 - Liquid Crystals
05 - Template
06 - Gunpoint
07 - Homeless
08 - Bowdlerize
09 - The Gambling Man
10 - When the Oxygen Ran Out
11 - Catnip Aloe
12 - Midnight Express

Victory for a Day (2011)

I was finally getting proper good at this music stuff, and made some of the music I'm most proud of, like _Prime_ and _Pebbles_. I also made some of my most emotionally raw stuff, like _I'll Be Fine_ and _Important Things_ (also, _Ideal Pictures_ was around this time but ended up on a different album). I don't regret making them, even if they're hard to listen to now and slightly embarrassing - art isn't content, it's therapy, which is why it's pointless to have bots make it for you. I was still burying my voice under layers and layers of filters to obscure the tone and lyrics, which is why I actually forgot - until listening to it again for this republish - that _Bridge Over Nowhere_ is thematically about suicide, but in a way that intentionally snuck the theme past the audience. This was also still the era where I was spending some time making prototype indie games. _Coffee_ was the background track I made for my prototype of the game _Oil_, which used spring physics to simulate playing as a little blob of goo. I must have heard that track a hundred times while tweaking and testing that prototype!
01 - Bridge Over Nowhere
02 - Slow Night
03 - Prime
04 - War is a Battlefield
05 - Pebbles
06 - I'll Be Fine
07 - Apprehension
08 - Coffee
09 - Riverwashed
10 - Grilled Cheese
11 - Sagavera
12 - Important Things

No Merit (2015)

This was mostly a concept album based around computer science themes, and I never meant it to grow so big, or eventually encompass a few songs that were more lyrical and off theme - _Prime_ ended up on _VFAD_ but it belonged on _No Merit_. I think the concept is why this album has such a signature sound of bitcrush and distortion and grit. Lots of it is this catchy combo of happy-aggressive. When I want to show off my music, a lot of the time, this is the album I go to - my last complete one, spanning from 2011-2015, before going experimental in a failed attempt to save off a long burnout period. As for the lyrical stuff, there's one set of falsetto vocals I cringe about (the first verse of _Ideal Pictures_), but overall I finally found some confidence in Beck-like monotones and spoken word, and wrote some of the best lyrics I ever have. It's probably the most I really let people hear me, and pain wasn't the only thing I had to say. Still, the back cover is pretty raw on purpose, and needs a bit of a content warning for being a mostly-uncensored monologue by someone suicidally depressed.
01 - Init
02 - Patchy
03 - Blades
04 - Hasher
05 - Fractal
06 - Lookup Table
07 - Allocation
08 - xorg.conf
09 - Traceback
10 - Outwards
11 - Offset
12 - Sidewinder
13 - Ideal Pictures
### Outwards ```text Go outwards In the silent, stinging night And look up at the sky Find the darkest patch you can Even that patch is full of stars Galaxies far, much older than us And the sky is bright Let the majesty wash through your hair Across your skin And down your spine On the back of the wind The grass is silver and soft and invisible to feet in sneakers Things are temporary We are things We are temporary as wooden spoons We know these things Yet there is no greater terror than realizing them And no greater serenity than accepting them Go outwards ``` ### Sidewinder ```text It's a matter of trust It's a matter of faith It's a matter of fact It's a matter of fate And they'll tell you what you want to hear all day They're just wired that way The world's a harsh place And I can't tell you how to live your life Mother Nature loves you Like all her other tasty children So trust who you want Trust who you need And pick people up When they bleed ``` ### Ideal Pictures ```text Ideal pictures On the wall I didn't paint them but they keep the psychos out Not a single brushstroke Just cross and hatch They look like motion They feel like life Ideal pictures On the wall Blame isn't useful and I'm sick of it right now Not a single moment Just across the latch I don't want your motion I don't want your noise ```